Ugh, last night I woke up at 2am, and could not fall back asleep until after 5. I know they say sleep problems are normal in pregnancy…but unless I took a nap during the day or went to bed very early, I never have a problem. Sure, I wake up to pee and chug Gaviscon like 7 times a night, but I fall back asleep easily and am glad to be sleeping well, since being pregnant is exhausting enough.
Well, I hope last night was just a one time thing, since it was not fun. There was no reason for it either-I did not sleep in or nap on Sunday, and had a busy and tiring day (the portraits were exhausting, and I did loads of laundry since we got our new machines), and I went to bed at a normal time, around 11pm.
my mind would not stop running in those 3 hours, and now I have woken up with a million things to worry about still in my mind. Here is basically what went through my mind over and over for 3 hours last night:
1. I don’t want to send the girl to French immersion, even though her teacher says it would be good for her. I am a bad parent because I don’t want to send her because it seems like a PITA when the public school is a 1 minute walk from our house and has an after school program.
2. She can be bussed to French immersion, but who will be home to meet the bus? Where will the baby be all day either way once I go back to work? Should I send her to the daycare the girl went to? How hard would it be to have them in 2 different programs?
3. We need a nanny. A nanny would be perfect. Full time care for the baby, after school for the girl, no pick-ups for me. I hear they do the kids laundry as well!! We’ll get a nanny!
4. We have no where to put a nanny. We cannot get the extra room in the basement cleared out. The man has all his crap in the other storage places, and wont get rid of enough stuff to empty out the extra room. Also, we only have one shower.
5. A live out nanny would be perfect, but is too expensive. Fuck. What are we gonna do when I go back to work. Should we send the girl to French Immersion? What daycare should the baby go to? How will I handle two different pick-ups?
6. We should not have gotten the portraits today. They were too expensive, it was stupid to not cancel after we realized were had the unexpected expense of a new washer/dryer. It is like the most expensive weekend we have ever had. And we still have not bought a new computer.
7. I better not have this baby too soon. The computer is still in the middle of the nursery, so we cannot set up the crib yet. We don’t even have a bassinet to put in our room.
8. I don’t even want a bassinet. The girl hated sleeping in one and we all slept better with her in her own crib in her own room.
9. Why was that? I am an AWFUL mother for not wanting my baby in my room close to me. I am pretty AP in every other way. What is wrong with me that I am okay to have my little babies sleep in heir own cribs in thier own rooms?
10. I better get out of bed and look for a bassinet on Craig’s List.
11. I don’t want to get out of bed. And I don’t want a basinett. I want the computer in our room, the crib set up, and the baby to not come before that happens. I also want to sleep.
12. I should get up and play on the computer or something, it is better than lying here trying to sleep. But I don’t want to.
13. What is that cramp? Is that labour? It better not be labour. We still have nowhere to put the baby.
14. See number 7 from above, repeat 7-11 several times before moving on.
15. How am I gonna display the portraits? Should I get seperate frames, or the type that hold more than one picture? Our whole house already has a million potraits on display. Do I take some down, or just keep adding? Where can I put portraits? Is it wrong to display portraits over doorways and toilets?
16. How am I gonna put them on my blog? I really want to. It is just a belly. You can see a belly anywhere. But maybe I should not? Should I password protect the post? Put only the ones that cover my tummy? Post all but the green ones (they are the most revealing)? Put big happy-faces over the belly? What will I do?
17. See number 6 from above, Repeat. Go back to number 1 above, repeat. Over and over again for 3 hours. Take occasional breaks to pee or chug Gavison.
Leslie said,
December 2, 2008 @ 1:18 am
Yikes that is a lot to be going over in the middle of the night. I didn’t sleep during the 3rd tri due to itching so I killed time watching CSI all night. Where does Zoe go to school right now? One minute from home and with after school is valuable! Paige is in full french and while its great that she is learning another language, she is on the bus 50 minutes in the morning. Not good! Zara goes to a HDC three blocks from P’s school and it still takes me almost an hour to get home with those two pickups in the afternoon. A nanny would be wonderful!
Could you just use a bouncy seat for when you actually want the baby in your room?
Dina said,
December 2, 2008 @ 4:10 am
hi,
we have a bassinet you could borrow until my SIL needs it. My bro decided they didn’t want it- and they got a different type from a friend.
i totally know what you mean about not sleeping…i always have tonnes going on in my mind too! it is awful.
Don’t worry about not wanting baby in your room. We are actually the only ones i know who DID have the baby with us and that was more because of my c/s so it was easier for Gav to just get baby quickly so i could feed.
maybe we could nanny share if we end up moving close by to you???
anyway we’ll talk :)
Here’s wishing u a better nights’ sleep tonight!
C said,
December 4, 2008 @ 3:53 pm
I had sleep problems when I was pregnant. I’d be up at 2~4AM sometimes. I remember falling asleep to Infomercials or the Shopping Channel! LOL!
Love the disposal diapers. Wish we could use them with The Little One, but while in the NICU and with her being so premature, it wasn’t an option.
Great idea about getting a nanny! My brother and his wife are getting one for their 9 month old and the twins that will be born two weeks after The Little One’s intended due date. Have I mentioned how I secretly feel like I’ve been ripped off of my pregnancy? Not carrying until term really sucks. Anyway…
How’s the beginning of your mat leave going? Hope you are able to rest and relax a bit if you can :) XOXO
The Blogger said,
December 4, 2008 @ 8:32 pm
Hey C, glad to see you here!
Yeah, it must be hard to have missed out on full term. It is not fun being this pregnant…but it is an exciting time. I am sorry you didn’t get this far. As you have said though, it is kinda neat that you get to see all the growth in your LO that usually happens in the womb. I am glad she is doing well and hoping to come visit again soon.
So far I have actually been really busy and had something going on every day. With 2 Chiro appointments and 1 Midwife appointment a week, I am occupied but it is better than working!
Dina, I’ll take you up on the basinett! Thanx!!