1. We were suppose to perform tomorrow night. Now we aren’t. That is a good thing, as we will in 8 weeks and it’ll be so much better then. But I was psyched for it, so I am disappointed.
2. I have been on spark-people for over a month now, keeping to my fat and calorie limits. I have also been exercising a lot more, and harder. But I am not losing weight. I am losing inches, but not many.
3. I am borrowing a costume from my instructor (it was her mom’s I think. She is tiny). The top, amazingly, fits me fine and is super cute. I could not get into the bottoms, and had to pin the belt onto my own pants. The other women in my class are all very thin. I feel so fat and ugly and disgusting next to them. I know I am much more fit and in better shape than I was a couple years ago and that I am in good shape for naturally chubby me right now…but I am still nowhere near thin and I don’t know how to get there. I don’t know how to watch what I eat even more carefully or fit in even more exercise without feeling miserable and getting obsessed.
*This post was brought to you by P.M.S.
*I think I will have a costume made for me. Even though it will cost money, I am sure I will look much better and feel much better about myself in a costume that fits me.
Today I went to a new place to get my nails filled:
*She cut 2 of my cuticles. They bled.
*She babbled to her co-workers the whole time I was there. I HATE this.
*She grabbed my breast while I was drying, and said they were nice and big and asked if they were real.
*Then she asked me to come back to her always.
Not so much.
P.S. I’ll post a picture of my (bloody) nails after my Belly Dancing class…with a little luck (if my teacher remembers) I’ll also have my costumes to show you!
UPDATE: I only have the top of my costume…but here are my nails. The blood does not really show anymore, but you can see a cut:
So, we had our belly-dancing performance tonight…and it was great! Even though it was just a small event (we performed for some of the other classes at the studio, and whatever friends and family we invited…I had the girl and the husband there) it was still exciting…and I nailed the routine.
The teacher has asked me to join the next level…and even though it is 2 hours a week and more money than I really would like to spend, I thinkI am gonna do it. It is weird, at first I did not like her or the class much at all…but now I love it and her (she is a doll). Learning choreography, after months of learning moves on their own, has gotten to be so much more satisfying. I can really see what progress I am making , plus it makes practicing at home much easier. I still struggle with the free dance, but am getting better at following that too. Once I started feeling better with the teacher and asking specific questions about moves she was adding to the routine before I felt I got them, she was very helpful and really worked to explain them well and help me feel confident. I am so glad I stuck with this class!!
Pics from before and during the performance…they are not very clear, sorry:
So last night, we had a much needed date night. The girl stayed with my parents, and the man and I went out for Chinese food (which I had for lunch too, oops!), and then hit a local Persian Night Club with our friends/neighbours to see a belly-dancing performance. The nightclub was lovely, though we were the only non-Persians in there and did not order dinner (just drinks and appetizers, though the food did look and smell wonderful), so we were not beloved by the staff. The Belly-dancer, Ibtissam, was fabulous. She looked beautiful, was a wonderful dancer, did several songs, and got the audience involved. I have never seen a live performance before and was not sure what to expect, but I loved it. Lucky for me, Ibtissam is a friend of the couple we went with, so I got to talk to her after the show. Turns out she has classes in my town, so who knows? I just may be changing teachers again! Not sure yet…I hadn’t even decided yet if I am gonna return to teacher #1 (Abhir at the Community Center) or stick with teacher #2 (Mathilda at L’ambiance) who I am getting used to now, and this third option has arisen. Oh well…It is nice to have options and I’ll figure it out. I suppose…
Here is a video of the lovely Ibdissam:
As for me, I wore this to dinner…and then changed to a black and white dress before the club at the last minute, but had no time to take a picture.
And for your final viewing pleasure, a picture of the girl last Wednesday on *Yellow Day* at camp, because she is so damn cute! Adorable dress courtesy of my parents.
